Swinging and Snow

Recently, a woman asked me if I have doubts about where God has called me. My immediate answer was no and even when I do, other people affirm it for me. The truth is answering the call God has placed on my life isn't where my doubts creep in. I know God has given me a gift in working with disabled children and teens. The doubt I have is wether I am doing any good. I really wonder if I am truly advancing God's kingdom. Am I making a difference?

Today, I spent the afternoon with a disabled 20 year old girl. She is very smart and capable but can't be left alone at home. I suggested we go on a picnic as the day was very lovely. There is a nearby park that she loves to play on. She whispered as we left "You read my heart, Aimee. I love picnics." After lunch, she begged for me to swing with her. She declares "Please you are the only one who does." We swung for 20 mins. As the finished, we ended in giggles as we tried to swing sideways and bump into each other. I told her "I think Jesus must have loved to swing." She said "Yes and snow."

I didn't make a huge difference today except to her...and I have to believe to her Maker too.

God bless you and keep you, God smile on you and gift you, God look you full in the face and make you prosper. In so doing, they will place my name on the People of Israel-I will confirm it by blessing them." (Numbers 6:24-27 MSG)

Frog juices

I realized the other day that while I still enjoy the occasional fart noise or snot joke (and I do really enjoy them-seriously will laugh out loud), the left over tomboy juice in my heart is running out. I found a frog in my bathroom (I don't want to think how it got there-it was the downstairs bathroom so I am going to hope it hopped in from the front door and not up the you know what).

I screamed like a girl when I found it. Seriously let myself down here. Don't get me wrong I still picked it up and took it outside. I am sure my neighbors thought I was crazy as I let the frog go out in the front yard and I continued to yell "Mr. Frog, you stay outside." I kind of miss my days of tadpoles and garden snakes (I gave one to my mom for mother's day once).

What I miss the most is the feeling of fearlessness, the curiosity of the world paired with innocence. But now my fearlessness is in my faith and rests on my innocence being restored through my Savior. My new motto in life is "Have fun storming the castle." I translate this as bringing joy to the struggle while running full force into the arms of my creator. What joy to find he is running to meet me.

"You did it: you changed wild lament into whirling dance; You ripped off my black mourning band and decked me with wildflowers. I'm about to burst with song; I can't keep quiet about you. God, oh my God, I can't thank you enough." Psalm 30:11